In all honesty, I miss you. A lot. There’s nothing I can do about it coz I ended it, and there’s no reason for me to put you through all that again.
And it’s driving me crazy that I don’t know whether you really are with her. I know I said to you that I want you to find someone else before me, but the thought of you having someone else drove me crazy.
I was obsessed and I wanted to see what you’ve been up to every day. I want to know her too, but I can’t, but I can see she will be good for you based on your interest.
However, all that changed when you talked to me. It kinda felt like how it used to be back then, but with reservations. You told me about her and I’m glad that you did just that. It helped me get back my insanity. That was it. You’ve moved on, and somehow that’s fine with me after we talked.
All I want is you to be happy, and that is the truth.
Taxi drivers in this country should be shot. Just because there’s a sticker at the back of your cab that says “Awas! Teksi berhenti! [Caution! Taxi stops! (Ok, That’s the direct translation. Not sure if it’s right or wrong)] doesn’t mean that you can stop wherever and whenever you want.
Swerving from the right most lane to the left & stopping at the last possible minute just to pick up customers is not only idiotic, it is also very dangerous. You guys don’t rule the road, believe it or not.
Annoying.
We grew up together, him and I. We’re only a year apart so I spent 80%-90% of my childhood at his place. He introduced me to Dragon Ball, which I am thankful for till this day. We were close but we did have moments where we hated each others’ gut. He once touched a lit firework on my arm when we were playing volcano with a frog. I still have the scar till today. It was of course by accident not out of spite. As life goes, we, like everyone else, drifted apart once I moved to a different town.
However, he still came to me to ask a very important question. Though I knew it was out of desperation, deep down I’d like to think it was because of that bond we created when we were much younger. The very important question he asked was “How do I win a girl’s heart? There’s this girl that I really like but I don’t know how to approach her. At all.” I let out a small nervous laugh, in my head the laugh was much bigger. Him asking me for love advice? Does he not know that me & love do not gel? I don’t know what I answered but it turned out great for him regardless.
He managed to get the girl and they’ve been together since forever. It’s not a surprise that they end up marrying each other. Every time I see him with the girl, he is nothing but attentive, nice & caring towards her. At times I can’t believe that’s the boy who I grew up and had kicking fights with, but that is him alright, and I’m proud of him to say the least.
Congrats! I’m really really happy for the both of you, and welcome to the family!
-What I wanted to say to my cousin’s video dedication but was too shy to say it. He will never read this, I know, but at least it’s out.-
I’ve left school 3 years ago, so I’m not sure whether to take it as a compliment or an insult when someone still asks me which school do I go to.
I once looked directly to the sun and was amazed that I could actually stare at it without any repercussions at that very moment.
Of course I freaked out right after when I realised that my vision has blurred.
There’s a reason they teach these things in school.
It’s the in-between that I hate the most.
The part where I’m not too sick that I can just lay in bed and sleep all day long,
and that part where I’m fully recovered and can do anything I want.
The in-between messes with my head. I have to be extra careful and it just gets tiring sitting/laying down all day. My tiny ass hurts, lethargy kicks in and there’s really nothing I can do to stop that coz I can’t be walking around either.
My head feels like it’s being clamped with a G-clamp all the time.
But then again, shivering at the toilet bowl trying to vomit isn’t a walk in the park either.
(It feels like I loose a kg every single time I throw up and I can’t afford that anymore dammit!)
